Tomorrow I go to court for the first time in any case.

I’ve only ever been inside the courtroom for a wedding a few years ago and more recently to observe some mediations.

Tomorrow I go to court as the plaintiff in divorce proceedings.

This still feels a little surreal. And when I realize that this is really happening there’s an overwhelming wave of sadness and fear for what the future holds.

Holding on to truth is hard…what a difference a day makes! Right now my mind is gripped with these two emotions: sadness and fear – they’re holding tight and envelop all else tonight. I wander from distraction to distraction, hoping that I can make it through, that the darkness won’t consume me.

Tomorrow…